dare's chinese new year...

alrighty...at mz's command.

THY SHALL WRITE.

well...let me give u a brief insight. i used to hate cny. i am never close to my relatives. (or at least most of em). especially for my father's side. coz there are really ALOT of ppl. and i mean ALOT. some of whom, i dun even know em! secondly, they stay very very far frm me. no, not msia. so i hardly really get to meet them. and they all jiang hua yi. i saya tatt tahu. so basically, like wat pca said - i was guilty of just going to collect ang baos, sit in a corner, gorged myself full with the goodies and watch my own tv programme - uninterrupted. but well, occassionally, got some aunties come talk to me, whom these aunts r quite close to my heart.

ok...so i shall get into proper on my main topic.

0902 - weds morning: woke up to a bad start, mom and dad were delaying due to some ang baos problem. beats me. i just watched teeeve. so in the car start to nag and nag and nag. we were late. only grandma left at home. the rest has gone over to my grand-aunt's hse. so nag even more. then dunno wat they started quarreling. i was - no, not again! here? on cny? then very strangely, this uncle, whom i seldom talked to, gave me a buddhist book. =..=""" and he tried "preaching" but failed. then after not long, the second installment came. he played some buddhist chanting video! i was...WORTZ WRONG MAN!!! so as the chanting continued, my speaking of tongues escalated. thnk goodenss we left not long.

in the car, i was like asking God why all this things had to happen. i also msg zhong, kenneth and zeng yu to grumble. i was like super sian diao already. coz the start of the whole cny and these had to happen. but...unknown to me, God has other plans under His sleeves. well see, during reunion dinner, i felt tt God wants me to talk to this cousin of mine - jinghong. but, coz of the awarkness and long-lost connection, i din know wat to say. so i juz continued in my small world watching tv. then only when we leaving, then i know tt he is studying in ngee ann doing IT. then somehow, it all clicked and made sense. God wants me to bridge this long-lost relationship with him. we had a common topic - school. and this time round, distance can nvr b an excuse for me. God wants me to reach out to him!

so when i was at my grand-aunt's hse, i started talkin to him. nothing of God. juz normal, building relationships talk. and boy, has he matured alot. i used to see him as some cry baby or some childish boy. but he has really grown. and i felt closer after tt talk with him. juz when i thot d whole new yr will come to an end when i leave for my mother's side, i was wrong.

now my uncle's (mother's side) family is kinda complicated. i shant elaborate. but they have 3 sons (my cousins). one of whom is same age as me. and i haven seen them for eons. ok, 2 years. and because they stay far too, we hardly meet up. ok, never. (remember i said their family is kinda complicated?) so anyway, i started talking to them again. and as i was talking, the topic went to Christianity. and it was started by mom, can u believe it! she was juz mentioning tt i was doing some show for my church last yr (the "my quest for you" musical), and then my aunt got all so excited. coz she too went to church. and my 2 cousins too. imagine me. i juz sat there in amazement. God is really a God of surprises! so there and then, started to talk to my cousin abt Chrisitianity! he hasnt been realli attending church regularly and i see tt God is using me to encourage him. wow! God nvr fails to amaze me man! and after it all, we felt close once again. we have mended the broken pieces and "we are together again...just praising the Lord..." in fact, their whole family is saved except for their elder son. WOW! praise the Lord! amazing, amazing!

so, i ended the day getting to know 2 of my dearest cousins better. and the best thing is tt we said tt we will make an attempt to build the long-lost relationship and meet up more often! hallelujah! remember the earlier entry abt me saying tt lets spend some time getting to know our family more? i juz felt tt it was frm God. and true enough, it DID happen to my family. i felt tt God is guiding me to the area of my family. coz there are some unresolved issues and things tt i need to clear. and so long tt is clear, they will very quickly come to Him.

this new yr is the best new yr of all my new yrs...