crucified
laid behind a stone
you lived to die
rejected and alone
like a rose
trampled on the ground
you took the fall
and thought of me
above all
posted by Xueming @ Sunday, October 09, 2005
[WEStWO] - TOGETHER AS ONE , THE WALL WILL FALL.
"But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; who once were not a people but are now the people of God, who had not obtained mercy but now have obtained mercy." 1 Peter 2:9-10
Sunday, October 09, 2005
laid behind a stone
you lived to die
rejected and alone
like a rose
trampled on the ground
you took the fall
and thought of me
above all
4 Comments:
hello i know what y'all are all doing now. you're singing "great is His love, great is his everlasting love" in service now(: i get free commentaries from my friend there(:
i donno how to blog in here so i can only leave comments hurhur
i feel the need to update y'all on what's happening at home (which actually is nothing much) and above thanking mingzhu for sharing my testimony to the whole youth congregation, i also need to say how that makes me feel and blahblah, ok here i go:
harvester's great and i don't feel feel quite so alone in this persecution thing and i am thankful, i really am. lately, mingzhu's been informing me of cell meetings and june asked if i was going for service and i didn't reply anything at all. because i don't feel good saying "no i can't" all the time. it feels wrong to keep turning down people who only want the best for you.
i've told lindy bout this. my parents are really actually very strict. all the times i've gone to church, all my excuses were PW (project work). never once did i say im going out with friends or just "to a friend's house" because i dont get permission very easily to just Go Out For Fun. and yesterday when you were all having service, i was at a sec4 cca gathering and even then, when i reached home, my parents wanted to call my friend up and ask if i really was there. i mean like when june was tutoring me for promos, when my dad first met her, the first thing he asked was "are you christian?" and she had to lie that she wasn't simply because my parents are completely against me being friends with christians now. even when my schoolmates aren't spared. even my catholic friends aren't.
of course i want to drop everything and just open the door and go for cell. but i cannot just tell my parents "i'm going to a friend's house" for no reason, and i'm sorry that my parents are so strict.
another thing is right now i'm finding it hard to break out of comfort zone. and i know alot of times being a christian is about going out of our comfort zones but this is how things are right now ok: (i've told jeremy ABIT about this) my parents and i never got along and now somehow, my faith has cooled down my temper alot and in face of criticisms and being put down, i can now turn everything around and just take everything lightly knowing that no matter what they say, i know they love me. and my relationship with my parents has just started becoming smooth and i know slowly but steadily, trust is being built up again (since the saturday they found out i've been lying to them just to go to church) and i am really very unwilling to have to lie to them to go to church again. i never wanted to lie anyway just to go to cell/church and worship God. why must i? it's not right. but yet inside me, i so badly want to go too. and that's my dilemma.
and my sister shares my sentiments in this: that underneath it all, no matter how much they persecute us, we still love our parents. and i really know that if i were to, along with the support of the church, 'emerge victorious' and be able to go to church freely, i know it will be them i am hurting. then i will make them feel like they've failed as parents and I REALLY DONT WANT TO.
maybe the real obstacle isn't really my parents. maybe it's that thing in me that makes me unwilling to hurt them in all that i do.
i haven't gotten arouund to tidying my thoughts yet, this is The Jumbled Up Version. it's just something i have to say, i'm not particularly looking for answers as well. i don't feel the need to understand anything because He knows it all, i can just trust. i'm contented enough doing my QT behind a locked door but i still wanna meet y'all soon, yet i donno how without lying to my parents.
thank you for the relacement card. i'll just keep believing that GOD WILL MAKE A WAY WHEN THERE SEEMS TO BE NO WAY and pray that He will tell me what to do soon.
Love(:
ohyes alot of people tell me they're encouraged/impressed by my faith? so you'll be the first ones to know that i'm not actually that great AT ALL cos i'm just sitting here peacefully at home, unwilling to disrupt my comfort zone. umm yea.
I'm encoruaged by your "never give up" spirit! God's gonna bring forth a blessing so great u can't contain it! soon! Jia you ok.. we're all behind you!
Continue praying and praying ok? God'll tear down the walls of persecution and criticism in His miraculous ways.
Remember Paul and Silas in the jail? They sang praises and worshipped God despite their unknown & uncomfortable situation.
When we take the first step to do something about our situation, God won't just sit there and watch! He'll react and respond according so that all can be done and fulfilled. The worship and praise of Paul and Silas touched the heart of God as He saw the deep passion of their love for Him. God then broke their chains and open up all the doors. ALL the captives were set free. (read Acts 16: 16-34)
In the end, Paul & Silas faith not only get them outta jail, it also caused brought about the salvation of the Jailer's household. Trust and believe that God will too save our families as we set apart ourselves for Him ya? You're not alone in this. Be assured, girl.
Oh yea, don't feel to stressed about the church thingy yea? I believe in God's perfect timing. Just don't give up for now! tThe reward is coming soon. :)
FYI: When others are impressesd and encouraged by your faith, they are spurred on to do something more for God. In your situations, know that you have ALREADY been a blessing unto God's people. What is insignificant to the 'blesser' is most of the times very precious in the eyes of the blessed. You've been a blessing, sister.. and be proud of it. :)
To God be the Glory.
Keeping you in prayer
Godspeed.
can i comment? i'm meix's sister by the way.
anyway, i just want to tell you this. yes i'm a coward to be hiding behind a computer screen while saying this. but hmm...
i just want to tell you that i hope you make the right decision for yourself, because there really isn't a right answer to this. i hope you'll think things through and that even as you listen to what others have to say (which you of course have to, because leaders have loads more wisdom and experience than us (: ), you will be the one who makes the decision, not your leaders or cell friends... because ultimately, you'll be the one who has to live with it and stand by it.
and i just want to tell you, dear sis, that even if your decision is different from mine, i won't be resentful, i won't judge, i won't try and convince you otherwise. and i'll be supportive of it and always be here for you if you need me. and you can count on me to be praying for you and our whole family all the time...
and i just want to let you know that i love you. i sincerely hope you already know that. but i want to say it again anyway.
- wei
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