hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. i'm meixian.

haha i just thought i should say something here about something that's been bothering me quite abit. and that is that in my christian fellowship in njc, we've split into small groups so that us meeting wouldn't be against the school rules and blah blah. well the main idea is i've shockingly been made a group leader, so like i'm in charge of 6-7 people. and i say shocking because they've been christians all their lives. and they're much more well-versed with the bible (i only started QT last june!), and they know farrrrrrrr more songs and they go to church every sunday..

you're probably all shaking your heads now because you know all the things i mentioned above don't count for much. it's the faith that matters right. i know that, but sometimes they affect me and i don't know why.

i can't understand why what happened happened, why i was chosen, and because i'm so amateur in this, always seemingly ignorant when i talk to jeremy, and still struggling with everyday sins, it makes me doubt my own capability.

mingzhu said God promoted me. that makes me happy to know it but also supremely daunted.

in a way it's made me more determined than ever to GROW in faith (better worship!). i guess i blogged this so i could ask for you to pray for me please. for me to serve God well with a honest heart, for God to speak to me at the right times and for me to do a goob job glorifying Him.

God Bless then:)

Did you ever know that you're my hero,

and everything I would like to be?

I can fly higher than an eagle,

for you are the wind beneath my wings.