Boo!

Alright.. it's a long since some one blogged.. So I will get the ball rolling again. :)
Hmm.. wanna thank you guys for praying for me, My fever's slightly better now, though it's not completely gone. It's the fourth day and it currently at a 38.4deg. I'm rpetty worried about it, so.. do help me out by continuing to keep me in prayer ok? :) missed you guys on sunday! Heard from MZ that Zihao came? OMG.. Zihao. long time since I last saw u la... haha. Glad to have you back. How was Ex service one saturday? did MZ lead? haha..

How was monthly meeting? Kinda feeling double-mndedabout ministries issues. Yea, I wanna go my best for God, using all that He's provided me, the gifts and talents to bring glory to His name. But.. I don't wanna be misunderstood. In a scenario as such, I can't help but focus on the "fact" that I will be misunderstood, that the leader(s) will not know where I'm coming from and what are my original Godly intentions. The things I've to deal with, yes, they are technical issues, very dry issues. No, I'm not doubting the leadership of the worship minsitry, no I'm not doubting the annoiting of God over His chosen leaders- i wouldn't dare. What I'm saying is.. Everyone of us is a member of the body right? Each has it's fuctions? I'm not claiming my speciality in being the "important" or "special" one, but.. I'm sure, I've been given the gift to see certain issues that no one seen- or at least nothing has been done about it as yet. Being in the music scene since 8, playing in the Istana, shaking the presidents (past and present) hands, oversea masterclass at Queensland Uni a 12, performing at Sydney opera house at 17, World Music contest in Nethelands with a Gold with distinction award at 19.. I see myself pretty 'qualified' to comment. BUT, I know there's a difference when it comes to the church context.

You know, i was pretty turned off when I was talking to a certain church leader for the first time regarding ministry issues and he/she said "well, come for monthly meeting next sat, perhaps it'll give u more opportunities to know me better.. and my qualifications." I was horrified. I dont' need to know your qualifications! You can be a newbie in music, but if you're God's chosen one, I believe you'll soar higher than one with Music Uni qualifications! Turned off I was. very. Nevertheless, that's not gonna stop me from serving God. Pst Zhuang from CHC one said in his sermon that "if serving God is your second choice, forget it. If serving God has to be at your convinience, forget it." So.. yea. Though I've been through sufficient torment in myself regarding these technical issues, I'm not gonna let it rest. I've griefed enough during services abt such issues, I've been disturbed enough during worship. Neither am I gonna take the easy way out and run away. I believe God has His plan for me in this church. I believe God has a place for me in this family. I believe I can make a difference for Him, to glorify His kingdom.

Credo. (Latin for 'I believe')
Do you?

I recall being called into the P's office real often in sec. sch days. Once, I was struggling really bad with A-maths and 8 subjects- I was on my braeking point. After crying and passing me sufficient tissue and hot tea, she questioned me how i could improve on my grades and I shaked my head in desperation. She smiled and said "Dwit". I though she just called me a "dimwit"(slang for stupid)! Later i realize, what she meant was D.W.I.T= Do What It Takes. That's what she did all her life, and that's what I will too.