HIIIIIIIII. meixian here. God really uses QT to speak to me. the amazing thing is He even takes into account human error and all that. i think he knows when i'll be too lazy/sleepy to do QT, so then when i don't read chapter X on that day and read it the next day instead, it applies more to my life :)
anyway i got a story. umm. my friend's friend K does a lot of things that suggest he's gay, like continuously showing my friend pictures of hot guys and.. ok. OTHER STUFFS. MANY STUFFS. so i asked my friend "is your friend K gay?" and my friend thinking that question was very funny went to tell K about it. and K became very furious with me. and started slamming and flaming me in his blog. and placing curses on me and whatever la. dumb stuff. but i don't know why, it eventually got to me and i started firing back insults.and they were really quite horrible and it sortaf became a competition of "who can fire the best most cutting most hurtful insult" or something, yea.
of course, all this while, i assumed it wasn't my fault, since i didn't actually begin the conflict between us and i thought i was just defending myself.
then talking to zengyu (rj og mate. from harvester aog too:)) made me realise the right thing to do was actually to apologise and make peace. that i myself should repent too for gossip and i'll "find that humility and forgiveness comes when you let yourself bare before God" (his words:)).
and i did matthew 5 for QT that night and God gave me verses.
(matthew 5:9) "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God."
(matthew 5:23-24) "Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift. "
(matthew 5:38-39) "You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.' But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also."
and the one which left the deepest impression on me:
(matthew 5:48) "Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect."
which basically means strive for perfection and nothing less, and never try to find a way around the laws (which was what majority of the chapter was talking about).
so in the end i ate humble pie, and even though i could think of 1001 better insults to say, i managed a sincere apology to him and he replied some short reply which i dint quite get, but because it wasn't an outright insult back to my face, i presumed i succeeded at making peace:)
hehe yea. just sharing. and i'm going to church this sat and sun. and staying over at mingzhu's on house on saturday night. i honestly can't wait even though it makes me think when's the next time i can go to church again after these two visits.
OHWELL. to end off i'm just gonna say, some might be 'impressed' by my faith but underneath it all, i'm just a normal christian struggling with everyday sins and my own pride. i'm gonna grow though so yea:) take care everybody. all the best
shufeng for the exams.
longjun too. see y'all!
